Daddy

Daddy why don’t you love me?

Why don’t you see that you hurt us?

Do you even care daddy?

Why do you call me names and tell me that I will never be good at anything daddy?

Why do you pull mommy's hair, why do you  push her down, and give us a scare?

Don't you love us daddy?

Why can't you see and understand the power you have when you swing your hand?

Why daddy, no matter what you do I will still love you and wish it was true that I'd feel it too, daddy.

Daddy why do you drink? It makes you mean, it makes you stink, it hurts your family and it makes me think, that you don’t care, do you daddy? Do you care? How can you hit someone you love? You yell and scream, push and fight, shove, and hit, destroy and bite. Are you an animal? Daddy what happened? Long ago, I remember when, you were in love, and mom was a friend. Daddy you got lost along the way, the years and the pain, the work and the strain, have seemed to change and warp your brain.

No, your not my daddy, what did you do, how did you change, where did he go? Its sure not the same, is he even in there, or is it too late, will you ever be the same dad, or did you choose your fate?  I miss you daddy, the one who held his little girl back when she was your whole world. Back when you would sing her songs and make her feel like she belongs.

Daddy. Come back to me. It cant be to late, please say you will change, yes you can change your fate, daddy.

I love you daddy and you cant beat that out of me, the tears won't wash away the memories, the pain, the feelings, the emotions, the love of a little girl will never die, but oh how you have damaged it, don’t you see? Do you care how I see you anymore?

It starts with a hug, so put down that drug, no more hurting, no more blood. Damn it daddy I am an adult now and you have taught me to hate. You taught me to hurt and to resent and be late. You taught me don’t show, promises flow, like a river in life with no where to go. A little girl lost and love you forgot, mommy's a mess with new tears in her dress. Daddy wont you protect her, like you used to? You used to be jealous you used to be loud, if someone would hurt her you were around. Nobody messed with your family back then, but now your too drunk and the laugh of the town.

You loved me before daddy, please love me once more daddy.

Johnny's so little and he needs you too, and he doesn’t know you the way that I do. He wasn't there the days that you cared and he never saw the love that was there.

So now I have fears, from anger and tears the hopeless abandon of love lost in years.

All he will see is pain in his dreams, the fights and the shoving the hurt and the screams.

He will be taught when you fight and get mad, you lift up your fist and hurt them real bad.

Yes he watches you dad and mimics you to dad. You are his light and the teacher  and hope dad.

Please show him you love him and show him you care, you don’t even see him, is he even there?

You cant turn back time and erase damaged minds, the pain you create is both lasting and shines.

I hope this gets through you, I hope you will see, the tears in my eyes and the pain in my screams.

Enough is enough dad your killing us all, you push us away, when you choose alcohol.